Healing while Letting Go

As I go through all this junk that's been suffocating me for years I find myself gasping for air and clawing these holds I've had grappling onto me like barnacles.  I have this sinking feeling in my stomach and my knees feel weak when I look at the storage boxes filled with paper, photos and half done projects.  I see a life that I longed for and a life I failed at.  I see a life I thought I wanted and a life I neglected.  It brings me to continuously pause as I contemplate my future.  What I see, what I want, what I plan to do.  
 
No more dragging ghosts of "never was" behind me, no more dead end schemes that filled my head with lies.  No more reminders of things left undone because they serve me no purpose.  Going forward my days will be light filled with meaningful treasures.  Wrapping myself with what's familiar, not with illusions.  There will be no more fakery, no more lies will leave my lips to seep into my mind and corrupt my inner-voice.  I will move softly down the path before me, only taking what I must to survive.  

Roadblocks are now platforms as I choose to thrive in my own skin.  I will cherish what I have always had, what God formed me with.  I will choose to illuminate, I will use the fire he created me with to be the force to get things done, to be content and to choose happy.

As I pack away these things to allow them to go out and breathe life for  someone else I will remember them briefly and thank them for be apart of this journey.  No regrets, no disappointments...only looking forward and beyond.  
Warm heart, thankful spirit and peaceful mind awaits, it is here, it is now in this present moment of today.

The Upside to Downsizing

One of this things I'm looking forward to while downsizing is the reduced amount of clutter and mess.  We will have 6 cups, not 57...yes that is how many plain cups we have.  Not talking about coffee mugs, tea cups, thermal cups, travel mugs, squeeze bottles and we even have a handful of sippy cups still hanging around.  We don't need all of that and it's so easy to grab another cup instead of rinsing out the one you have and reusing it.  Or at least that's how it is in our house.  I feel like I am forever washing dishes and as soon as the sink is clean I look away and the crusty mountain has returned.
What I decided to do is make a donation pile, a take with us pile and a store for later pile.  Right now in the kitchen I am getting rid of anything plastic, if it's chewed on or scratched up I will toss, if not I'm donating.  We are keeping a set of hydros, a glass and mug a piece and the same goes for plates, bowls and our set of silverware.  Everything else gets donated along with all of our tupperware. We will take a baking dish, muffin pan and small cookie sheet, the rest will be donated.  We have a pot and pan to take and the rest.... if you say donate it then you guessed right.  We will take our instant pot and that's it.  
To store until we move out of the rv into a sticks and brick home are things like cookie cutters that we have used for 20 years, canning stuff, favorite cookbooks, my huge mixer and that's about it.  There just isn't much we truly need as a family.  Over the years we accumulated stuff in the hopes we would find happiness.  The whole filling a God shaped hole with stuff scenario.  But, that's not us anymore, we are a work in progress...don't get me wrong.  When I walk into Target I sometimes breakout into a sweat when I walk past the $1 section up front.  Which is really more like the $3 and up, up, up section.  
So, that's the way the kitchen is coming along.  Next will be clothes, knick knacks, linens, toys, books, garage and then the dreaded homeschool room.  I'm most terrified of the homeschool room.  Follow along though with us, I can use all the ideas and suggestions I can get to make this a smooth process.  Take care and God Bless!!!

Healing through the New Year

We have been walking every single day for the past 4 days....sounds like a small number, but with Lupus it's a miracle.  And every day I wake up expecting to not be able to more.  The first few mornings were the worst.  Honestly I almost didn't make it to the bathroom on day 2.  I notice for me I am getting enormous inflammation around my hip joints, shoulders, elbows and hands.  My feet and legs are surprisingly totally fine, which leads me to believe that  the amount of walking I'm doing my body can tolerate from a structural point.  It's just the swelling triggered by the repetitive movement from the walking.  I can push through all that, I wont get much else done, but at least I will be consistently exercising and chugging along until my immune system decides to take a chill pill.
I have been increasing my water, not skipping on my supplements, taking my CBD oil and rubbing down with essential oils like turmeric, oregano and frank.  I've also been adding a healing meditation along with a typical meditation I normally do and have been hitting the hay earlier.
So, that's my attack on getting rid of the Lupus weight I've had packed on for the past 10 years. Excited for 2019... what about you?

Daily Affirmations

Daily Affirmations are a positive way to start your day.  Or when you start battling negative self-talk, try one of these instead.   In the Bible it says Proverbs 23:7 “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he…” What we think, we’ll eventually say and what we say is very powerful. We can speak words of life and we can speak words of cursing. The Bible warns us to guard our thoughts and mouths.  Proverbs 18:20-21 says “From the fruit of his mouth a man’s stomach is filled; with the harvest from his lips he is satisfied. The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.”

*I have unique attributes and abilities because I am a Woman.
I am strong.
I am wise.
I am precious in the eyes of God.
I can love and be loved.
I have power to choose my course in life.
I accept my self for who I am.

*I replace my anger with understanding and compassion.

*I know that God’s unfailing love surrounds me and that I can trust Him.

*I have everything I need.  I trust my ever-increasing ability to eliminate the non-essential and appreciate that which matters.

*Whatever I need to know is revealed to me.  Whatever I need to have comes to me.  Wherever the Lord leads me is exactly where I need to be.

*I pray for wisdom and direction in every area of my life.

*I don’t need to figure everything out.  I don’t worry if I don’t understand things in my head, because my trust is in the Lord, and not in my head.  God is the Source of everything I need, and I place my trust in him.

*My thoughts are positive, Words encouraging, Habits constructive, Deeds good.

*I trust that everything comes at the perfect time and in the perfect way.  The Lord works everyday miracles.  He always serves my higher good.

*My heart is my home, and with God’s help, it will be a place of love.

*I am born spiritually and become a new person.  Old things pass away and all tings become new.  I look at the world through new eyes and listen with new ears.  I think new thoughts, take new actions, and have a new life.

*I trust that everything comes at the perfect time and in the perfect way. The Lord works everyday miracles. He always serves my higher good.

*Faith isn’t something I must have before I move in the direction of my dreams.  Instead, it’s something that develops after I start moving.

*My heart is my home, and with God’s help, it will be a place of love.

*I Am Not Alone…..I live in a world created and sustained by love.

*I have opened my heart and mind to the power of God’s love, and I dare to call God my Father.  My heart, mind, and will are all heading in the direction of God’s love, and I am a whole person. I love God with all my mind, all my heart, and all my strength.  There is no ambivalence in my relationship with God.

*My heart is my home, and I should feel comfortable there. It should feel good to be at home with myself.  If I don’t feel good inside, I need to make some changes in the way I think so that I can change the way I feel.

Tuesday Self-Talk~ Affirmations

This is my very 1st Tuesday in my Tuesday Self-Talk Series here at Four Violet.  Make sure to check it out each week, because we are commanded to Love ourselves and what better way to do that then to Power Up our Self-Talk!!!  No more Negativity!!!  God created us Beautifully in His likeness.  

I have found that Daily Affirmations are a positive way to start your day.  Or when you start battling negative self-talk, try one of these instead. :)  In the Bible it says Proverbs 23:7 “For as he thinks in his heart, so is he…” What we think, we’ll eventually say and what we say is very powerful.  We can speak words of life and we can speak words of cursing.  The Bible warns us to guard our thoughts and mouths.  Proverbs 18:20-21 says “From the fruit of his mouth a man’s stomach is filled; with the harvest from his lips he is satisfied.  The tongue has the power of life and death and those who love it will eat its fruit.”  Bellow are just a Few Affirmations to get You started, I'll share more each week.  I have mine written on index cards on my bathroom mirror, dash of my van, at my desk and in my planner.....get creative and let your Self Love Flooooow!

*I am strong.
 

*I am wise.
 

*I am precious in the eyes of God.
 

*I can love and be loved.
 

*I have power to choose my course in life.
 

*I accept my self for who I am.

*I replace my anger with understanding and compassion.

*I know that God’s unfailing love surrounds me and that I can trust Him.

*I have everything I need.  

*I trust my ever-increasing ability to eliminate the non-essential and appreciate that which matters.